Amazing, so wonderful, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

This week I've been going through so many emotions. I think it finally hit ms that the love of my life is leaving for college in now less than two weeks. I don't like never seeing him. It freaks me out. Also, when I have a bad day his hugs usually make everything better. I don't think it's possible to find a better boyfriend. I mean, yeah, we get into disagreements, but we talk it out and everything is okay again. Like, you don't even understand what it's like going through this. Ward's always telling me I don't understand, but yeah, it sucks. It hurts so much to never see him, and I'm not ready, but I have to be. I'm determined to see him next Wednesday. I will get to say goodbye. I honestly don't know how I am going to handle this. But I have the best friends and now the people at church who would be there for me in a minute. I cry all the time, I just can imagine it being worse when he leaves. I just don't know what I'm gonna do. It's gonna be so weird, but on the other hand, I love him so much and I know we're perfect together and God will help us stay together through this mess. I find myself going to everyone else first and I realize I need to pray before I even start pouring my heart out to anyone else. I'm very lucky to have found someone who completes me. It's like the greatest feeling ever to know I'm in love with my best friend. Knowing you can trust someone with anything is like amazing. I love that I fall more in love every day. I am blessed beyond words. I'm gonna attempt to be happy now instead of crying myself to sleep over things I can't change. I love Ward more than life, I just wish people could understand but no one else knows the feeling, so it's so hard to tell people what's going on. I honestly can't wait to see what the future holds for him. He will be an amazing band director. I'm very proud to say he's mine. I wouldn't trade that for anything in this entire world.