Tears of love

I want you to understand that I say things like that because I love you. If I didn't, I'd keep everything bottle up inside and return to being negative all the time. I can't express how much I've changed over the past few months. I don't want to go back to the person I was last year. I kinda feel like I blow things put of proportion. I know I said I didn't trust you earlier, but that was out of anger. You're my life and I do trust you. I just wish you would listen to me. I'm honestly surprised you still want me after I blew up. I want everything to go back to being okay. I want to look you in the eyes and know that everything is okay and nothing will tear us apart. I want the whole world to know that you're mine and that I'm proud of us together. I can't help it that I have strong beliefs, and you knew that before everything. There's still so much I want to learn about you. I want us to grow as a couple and face the world together no matter what punches us in the face. When I look at you, I see sunshine. All my worries go away while we're together. You give me chills and butterflies in my tummy. I don't want anyone else. As far as I'm concerned, you're all I could ever want. You already took my heart and turned me into a mushy mess. I know some people will think this is silly, but it's kind of obvious that I'm absolutely in love with you. Nothing can possibly change my feelings. I know we don't always agree, but I mean, who does? Please don't ever let go of me. I'll be a disaster. I love you. I love you. I love you.

Four Christmases

Dear bloggers,

I haven't blogged in a while, so I thought I'd catch everyone up to date.

Oh, so before Christmas, Mel and I had our Christmas. It was a great day. I loved everything she got me. I could not ask for a better best friend and second family. I love them so much.


Christmas was Saturday and everything as actually really calm. We got up super early and opened up presents. I got an iPod touch and a new DVD player since mine decided to kill itself. We went and ate breakfast at Mamaw's and it was super yummy. I got some cool stuff and I was just supper excited. We didn't eat much for lunch and then we went to my other grandparents house and had dinner and I learned my love for the stock market. :D

Yesterday, I went over to Ward's house and we watched Kung Fu Panda and some episodes of How I Met Your Mother. He is so wonderful. It got to be dinner time and we went and ate with his mom and grandpa. That was definitely an interesting experience. I asked him if any of his other girlfriends had ever met his grandpa and he said no. I felt really special. I love that boy. I couldn't have asked for a better day. It was absolutely amazing.

Today we went and did a lot of errands. Emily got her braces off and sounds like she has a lisp. Haha! Anyways, we went to the mall and ate at chickfila and didn't buy anything, which is surprising. After that, we went to the grocery store and the post office and went to Walmart and did all that fun stuff. I came home and went through all my CDs that I wanted to put into my iTunes and then we ordered new phone cases and iPod cases. I'm super excited to get them.

Charles called and wants me to babysit tomorrow. Bleh, now I have to wake up at the same time I would have to for school. It's just another day of movies and being super cold. I think i'm gonna get Mere to do my nails again.


Friday night is my last Christmas. It's kind of a bummer, but I'm super excited. I dread going back to school.

Anyways, later y'all :)

Baby, it's cold outsideeee :)

Santa seems to be kind of a creeper to me. He sees you when you're sleeping and knows when you're awake?! CREEEPPYYY.

Yesterday was the start of my lovely Christmas holiday.

I got up and went around on errands with my mother. I came home and then it was time to turn around and go hangout with Kimmy and Mel. Yesterday was awesome. I got so many new things and might I add, Mel's present was beasty toooo.

Today Mel's grandma came over and gave us necklaces. Awh, it was so sweeet. My family is coming over tonight for a wii tournament. WOOHOO. I'm going to be exhausted.

Santa Clause is hitting up the big ol' DC tonight with his sleigh. Tomorrow morning we'll wake up and see what he's brought us. Woooo! I'm excited.

Sunday will just be church and homework.

Monday is a full day with Ward. I. Am. So. EXCITED. I haven't seen him in like a week, and i'm not a fan of thatttt.

Wednesday the family is coming in from Raleigh, so more Christmas then.

On New Year's Eve it'll be Jenn's birthdayyy, we're sure to have super lots of fun thennnn.

Then it's New Year's day :D:D:D:D:D

Then we'll have to go back to the reality of school. Ugh. I'm dreading it. ^_^

Dreaming of tomorrow

So, today was weird. I got up like normal. Babysat Maddie from 7-515. I came home. So, today i've learned..

1. Mel is the most important person in my world. She's been there for me, I'm here for her.

2. The key to my relationship is that we talk about everything. I'm very solid with my Christian beliefs and I'm proud of it. I wouldn't have it any other way. I thank God for Ward and everything that I've become.

3. Don't ask me if I've heard about Mel. Pretty sure she's my best friend and she's going to tell me anything before she tells you. K thanks you annoying person.

4. Malgie is sweet. I love my conversations with her and how happy and bubbly she is. :D

5. We need to plan our stinkin' sleepover, dangit. I miss my girls.


Oh, and I'm sick and tired of all this two days into dating someone and you're already in love with them. I mean two days?! I get get 2 or 3 months, but two days!?!

Anyways, tomorrow should be boring again. Awesome. I hope Mel starts feeling better. I need to hangout with her, so bad.

For a Lifetime

It's interesting to get into deep conversations with people. Joe and I have been friends for what? 8 years of my life? That's over half a lifetime. I know I'm not always a nice person, so we've gone through periods where we haven't talked in a while or periods where we talk all the time. I remember being in third grade and having something really exciting to tell him and calling him like four times til he picked up the phone. Church back in those days, was the best. After they left, we kind of went separate ways, but he always invited me to the birthday parties and such. I remember when he got his new cell phone and I kept trying to text him and it turned out it was in a box... cause it was orange and brand new. We got older with time and still didn't talk much, but somehow I ended up with him and Lewis seeing Narnia. Hmm, time goes on and last year we went to the movies with Alli and we were out like all night. It was cool. He made fun of my pink pants, just like everyone else does. So, year goes on and then for some reason 10th grade year seems to bring us closer than we've been in such a long time. He told me texting me was like breathing. It's out of habit. Hahahaha. Honestly, I can't believe he's been my friend for so long. I'm definitely not the nicest person, but for some reason he's stuck by my side and been there when I needed support. I couldn't ask for a better best friend. Seriously, he's got my back and he's earned his spot as my friend for life. ♥

Hahaha, Joe!

You know someone is your best friend when.... their mommy posts a picture on facebook and the caption is that he was texting his bff and wouldn't go to bed. I love my best friend. ♥

Wooo, yes!

Sooooo, one fourth of this year, today, I have been happily in a relationship with my best friend. Gah, I can't believe how much time flies. It feels like yesterday was just the beginning of highschool and now i'm like a totally and completely different person surrounded by a totally different group of people. I got to see Brooklynn today and I was so freakin' excited. I've missed her beautiful face, so so so so so so much. There's so many people in my days and I just love most of them so much. I'm very thankful for my girls. I LOVEEEE them. Anyways, school is over for this year. Mr.Wogatzke let us watch youtube the whole 3rd period today. It was wonderful. I quite enjoy that class on good days. So anyways, Ward and I are going on 3 months today and that makes my heart smile. He's my other half, no doubt. I've fallen. :D

-Christmas with Mel on the 23rd. Woo!

UGH.

I despise cold weather. I despise snow. I despise people telling me that it's just ice and crap. I know that. I really needed to go to school today. I have four tests whichever day we return to school. I am not happy, nor will I be happy until it is spring. My feet are cold, so I have to wear socks or slippers or something to keep warm. It's not working. I hate like below 50 degree weather. Mr.Wogatzke emailed me the powerpoint from the review game, so, since I'm awake, I might as well go study or something. ^_^

Honesty? What of it?

Well, yesterday was crazy.

Ranted for a while in Haley's car.

I started thinking about what's going to happen in the future. To be honest, I'm scared. Like I was telling Haley, I'm going to be a disaster. It was like one of those uh oh feelings. I'm very needy when it comes to love, but also I don't accept the fact of what love actually is. It's different between my family and my friends. Like, some people have to love me no matter what, but others, it's hard for me to get that they love me for me. I don't feel like I'm as beautiful, smart, pretty or why people accept me. I've been thinking a lot and it kills me to imagine some of the possibilities of the future. I've definitely found my other half. He's my world. I'm so much happier, but what's going to happen when he leaves? I'm scared that my depression will hit and nothing will ever be the same. This year has been a whirlwind and it's been one of the greatest(and worst at times) of my life. I'm lucky to have my support group of girls, especially Haley and Mel who listen to my thoughts of frustration and anger and everything. I feel like a lot of change is coming, and I do not like it. I want it to go away. Sometimes, I wish I could just stop time and live forever in that moment. Life is full of things good and bad. I'm guessing our job is to live through it and deal with the hardships that come and enjoy when there is nothing but happiness. I'm being honest, this year has been a realization. I've realized that my group of girls will always have my back. Always (and i'll have theirs too, always). I've realized people who I thought were my friends, aren't anymore because they don't like who I am now. Oh well, I've found my group. My place. God put a wonderful boyfriend into my life and definitely when I least expected it. I'm thankful for that. He makes me smile like the sun. He's my sunshine in the darkness I keep facing.

I love you ♥

Some say change changes everything.

It's seriously amazing how much people change over just a year of life. I know I have. I started out last year and the one afraid to be different. Melanie and I have been best friends since band camp last year. A lot of people say you grow apart with change, but it's been quite the opposite for Mel and me. What some people see as trying to tear us apart, only makes our bond as sisters/friends/humans stronger. I feel like her family is my second family. They're so wonderful. I couldn't ask for a better place to just randomly stay all the time. She's one of my day to day heroes, but I've never told her that. I know I'm a pain to deal with, and I honestly don't know how she deals with me. I can tell by her mood what's wrong and such. She's become such a part of me that I'd be totally different without her. She sees the side of me that a lot of people don't. I feel like I belong somewhere now and like i'm accepted even though I may look tacky and terrible or say dumb things. We talk about everything under the sun and I'd be lost without our laughing. I've seen her in tears and held her while she cried. I remember going to her Grandpa's visitation and just standing there hugging because all she could do was cry. I know she'd be there in a heartbeat for me, and I would do anything and everything for her too. God placed her in my life for a reason. I know we don't get along all the time and we may spend too much time together sometimes, but she's my best friend. I'm thankful for her and always will be. I already know she's going to be my maid of honor and my go to girl for everything. She's one of my heroes. I love you, Melanie. Always and forever.

I think that plant is dead.

Weekend:

Friday: Pep rally in 2nd period. Got me out of Noel's class. At the end of the day I went and got my Christmas present from Brittany. Melanie and I walked to Ward's car. We didn't let Michaela and Jenn out of the parking lot. Hehehe. We met them at Pizza Hut. Mel left with them. Ward and I went to the park where he wimped out cause it was cold, but at least I got to swing. We drove by my grandma's and he saw that dern deer in the tree. We then walked around Walmart for like thirty minutes. Hahhahah. It was silly. Next we went to the Dance Concert where I supported my dancing boots! I saw Joe and his mommy. I talked to Mel and Ward and Isaac the whole time. Tehehe. After it was over, Rob apparently let Melanie and Jennifer into Ward's car and they were sitting there when we got there. Hahhah. I had a message on my phone from Mamaw telling me she baked me a cake, so I made Ward take me to get some. Hahhahahahah. He saw my true Davie County accent. He brought me home and made fun of my Christmas tree. Oh well. I love that boy.

Saturday: Game day. Hahahhahahhahahahahhahha, I just can't even talk about it. It was brutal, but hey, it's just history in the making. I went out to dinner with my grandparents. Kimmy called me and told me she made me puppy chow. Mmmmm so good. I went home and fell asleep before 9.

Sunday: Got up. Went to church (but really went to children's church.) I got to hangout with Ms.Kelly and Claire and Macey. I've missed them terribly. I told Kelly about some of the drama going on and she told me some phrase her grandma says and I wish I could remember. I apparently missed Ward pulling into the church parking lot. That was such a bummer. :(( I went home and then got to Mamaw's and they had no water, which was just lovely. Hmm, we came home and I read Act 2 in A Doll House and did Ch. 17 Section 2 in AP World. I just now have to get started on my Biology project and I'll have everything done. Ward's working, and Mel's so distracting. I told her that the vocabulary she was using is sexy. Hahhahaha, I love that girl. I can't wait for Christmas over at her house. My second family is amazing.

This week consists of:
Tests in Bio, World, English, Band.
Going to see the Chorus Concert.
Going to the Band Concert.
Anna's Party.
Having Christmas at my Aunt's.
Seeing Grease on Broadway.

Keep on Lovin' Youuuu

I haven't blogged in a while. I've been so stinkin' busy with homework this week that I could vomit. Ward and I are going to the dance concert on Friday. :D:D:D Finally, we get to hangout for once. I've missed that. He's stolen my heart and everyone can see it on my face. So, how about my hair is quite a lot shorter than it used to be. It's crazy. I can't decide if I like it better straight or curly. So, I've been doing both. I really dislike how it's so short that I cannot put it up in my daily bun. *Sigh.* So, like my thumb is infected and my mamaw decided to pour a bucket of peroxide on it and it hurts so bad. I laid in the living room at my mamaw's and ate popcorn and watched Jeopardy and Wheel of Fortune by the fire. Mmmm, I love warmth. So, we were leaving my mamaw's house and we went through the yard that connects to their rent house, and Brian(their renter) has a deer hanging in the tree in the front yard. It's the most redneck thing I've seen in a long time. So, I'm watching one of the Country Awards shows I missed and Uncle Kracker is definitely a lot more chubby than I thought he would be. James just IMed me and asked me about Mrs.Noel's paper. Guessing he pays tons of attention in class. Hahhaha, so Haley got her license. This means a trip to IHOP soon. I LOVE that girl, so so so so so so so much. So, I bought tickets from the gorgeous Taylor to the Winter Dance Concert and I'm dragging my absolutely wonderful boyfriend to that where he gets to meet Joey. Woooo. Joe's my best friend who tells me I'm boring all the time. Thanks Joe. So, I love the day s my daddy cleans the house. It's so clean. I LOVE clean. So, my bed is calling me and my mickey pajamas. Goodnight World. Until later!

LOL can mean so many things :)

Last weekend:
DCAW Friday night at Porter Ridge.
Snowy parade
Laying around and doing NOTHING.
Feeling like butt.
Got all my hair cut off, but I gave it to locks of love.

Yesterday:
School and all. Got to sit next to Ward and Taylor in 1st period. How could life be better than that!?! Went to see Tonya in 4th period. She couldn't believe I got all of my hair cut off. Mrs. Noel loved it. Hahhaha. I love her and her tv cart issues. After school, I came home and attempted to do my homework. I'm pretty sure that worked out fantastically, not. I went to Shiki for supper and got some noodle stuff and that is SO good. I went to South Davie for Emily's band concert. There were so many people there. I talked to some random teachers. I lovelovelove Ms.McClamrock. We have the best conversations. Jimeson came over and sat with me on the bench because we couldn't get in the gym. We decided to make fun of people walking by. It was wonderful. I had an eventful day, but I'm ready for this weekend. I'm pumped for the dance concert on Friday, States on Saturday and sleeping on Sunday. :D

You are my sunshine, my only sunshine :)

I love every minute I spend with my boyfriend, even though he's really disgusting and burps and thinks it's hilarious, also the fact he totally called me a whore and a hoe today which is ridiculous because I'm never going to be either. He's my sunshine. He's turned my frowniness into happiness. I love it. He's sweet. He lifts my mood up so much, and I wouldn't trade that for anything.

I thought I would talk about this morning. I got to school at like 7:20 because my papaw decided that he needed to go to Salisbury and he just dropped me off on his way. Lorena and I went to Mr.Wogatzke's room and I got her fingerprint and we chatted with him about last night's glee episode. Wogatzke and I decided that we don't like Quinn and Sam as a couple because they look too much like siblings, but Lorena disagreed. It was wonderful. I then proceeded to walk into the BR and Jimeson was up in the loft thing and I was yelling up there about how stupid glee was last night and so I decided to walk up there and for all those people who wrote on the walls, yeah, it's not clean. It's absolutely disgusting. I went to first period and Hannah decided to inform Taylor, Katie and I all about her love life and then asked us about ours and the first thing Katie says is "Carrie and her boyfriend make out all the time." Thanks. Second period rolled around and I just absolutely love Rachel Whitaker. Isaac threw his dang pencil at me. I should've punched him. Third period rolls around and Luke gives his daily 'Carrie is a whore speech.' I talked to Wogatzke for a little while and took a quiz. I then went to lunch with Taylor for Taynesday. I left and walked back with Katie so I could see Ward. I love that. Lovelovelove. Brightens my day. I went to fourth period. We had a playing test. Guess who beasted that!?! The flutes. Heck YES. I actually knew it and all. You should be so proud of me. Melanie was like freaking out about some person being a b word. It was lovely. I texted Brittany and she told me she's coming home on Monday. WOOHOOO. I'm excited. I went to see Tonya and she showed me her haircut. It's pretty. I love her. So, I'm quite enjoying my life right now. I'm so ready for Friday. It promises to be wonderful.

Also, I've quite enjoyed how Joe and I talk more and I make him have to erase his inbox all the time and how we have a common creeper that neither of us can get rid of. He can't believe I've never seen Forrest Gump. Guess I'm missing out on something?? Oh well. It also amazes me how we've been friends for over half my life. We've grown up together and we'll be friends for a lifetime. Also, I love how he hates my music box, but I told him to get over it, hehehehe :D

Capturing Life

Forever?

Last night we had another round of the playoffs. I cannot believe we won. That was crazy. I'm not always the most cheerful person when it comes to me having to stand outside in the cold weather every Friday night of my LIFE. Oh well. I woke up today due to my stupid internal clock, but lucky for me, Ward was awake and I texted him while he was getting ready to go to work. I get so bored when he's working because I seriously have no one to talk to all day. It's such a bummer. I wish we got to hangout more though. We always have the best times, filled with magic and whimsy. Hahhaah. He's seriously the best person for me. He brings out the happiness in me instead of all that negativeness I was filled with last year. He makes me smile all the time. I wouldn't trade that for anything, ever. I love our late night conversations where some how I manage to stay up past 9.. which used to never happen. I love how I'm standing there and he walks up behind me and puts his arms around me and tells me he loves me. I love that we have silly conversations and people think we're gonna end up sitting on our porch being that old bickering couple. Hahahah, I hope they're right. He's my world. I thank God for putting him in my life. He's the best. I want this to last forever.

Please hear me

Thankfuls:

1. My amazing God.
2. My chaotic and crazy family.
3. My stupid 3 am shopping best friend.
4. My simply wonderful boyfriend.
5. My fantastic circle of girls.
6. Marching band.
7. My education.
8... this list could go on and on.


Dear Jesus, I know I have like ten billion things to be thankful for, but can you please help all those doctors and scientists and experimentalists find a cure for Lupus. I was sitting there talking with my grandma yesterday and she was showing me what it does to you. Like it looks like someone burned her in a straight line along her blood vessel, but in reality, she just woke up yesterday morning and it was there. It's so hard seeing her go through so much pain. Make it better. Make it go away. Please help find a cure. Love, Carrie

I'm so lucky to have all those things to be thankful for. I honestly feel like the luckiest girl in the world even if I don't act like it all the time. I'm lucky to have such a great family, an exceptional best friend and boyfriend who cares so much about me. I honestly wouldn't trade my life for anything in the world. I love how chaotic and sleepless it is. Life is good. Life is wonderful. <3

Hello World

Woke up way to stinkin' early. I decided I would watch Glee DVDs until everyone else woke up. Yesterday was not as wonderful as Tuesday. I laid around and did absolutely nothing. I got Subway for lunch and came back home. Mama got home about two thirty and we went to Salisbury to see Tangled, but of course the stupid Rowan County parade had to be in my way and I had a major panic attack because there was lack of signs for a detour and it was just not fun. Then I was attempting to get from the movie theater to Ichiban and that was also another detour not labeled and everyone was yelling at me and I don't handle yelling and driving well. I started crying. It wasn't fun, but anyways Tangled was another Disney masterpiece and I'm thinking about dragging Ward to see it to. Hehehehe, he's going to love the day I force him to watch a Disney princess movie. He really is. He has my heart and it just blows my mind that he still picks me. Anyways, Thanksgiving is never really been that great of a holiday for me. I don't like turkey, so I never really eat anything, so yeah, today should be just peachy.

Fairytaleee

Yesterday was like the greatest day of my life.

We did nothing productive in school.
School got out.
Ward and I came to my house for a little while and watched random things on youtube and I checked facebook and all that stuff i'm addicted to. Then we were in for an adventure. I learned that I would have to use my mad navigator skills to get to the Statesville movie theater. That was super exciting. I just couldn't believe he'd never been there before. I actually saved him some money, what now! We saw Harry Potter. Ahh, so good. We came home and I walked in and Emily was watching Glee. I cannot believe I forgot all about it!!!! Therefore, Ward was forced to watch it with me. Hehehhee. I love that boy. I had the most wonderful day. I couldn't have asked for anything to be more perfect. <3

Tales of Yesterday

Yesterday was amazing.

I woke up to a room of girls that I absolutely cannot live without. They complete my life. We took crazy pictures and ate cake which then was smeared across my face thanks to Rachel Whitaker. Ward finally woke up and I talked to him like all day. I went to help set up the banquet and ended up riding around town with Pete, Jenn and Mel for like the longest time. I'm pretty sure everyone thought we were crazy. We ran into Rachel and Haley when we went to Ben Franklin. Awh, I love them. Next, I finally got to go home for a little while and Emily and I had kind of a 'woodwind war', but not really cause we were trying to practice our Christmas music. Then, it was time to go to mamaw's and take Emily. Mama and I went to Ben Franklin and then Dunkin' Donuts and Dollar General. Off to Blaise next where I proceeded to spend the rest of my night. Because I spend every day with those people, it really makes me wonder who my real friends are. This one girl thinks that she's my competition for Ward or something like that and I just think that's the funniest thing ever. He obviously chose me, not you, so like get off my back. I had some interesting conversations with my mommy and Ward's mommy and Edwin. They just make me giggle. Mel proposed to me and I put the ring on my keychain. You don't even understand how much I love that girl. Then Ward left and I walked him to Paul's car and he kissed me goodnight. Oh! And he gave me a piece of that super awesome mint chocolate chip icecream gum. That stuff is amazing. After that I made Mel give me a piggy back ride and Michaela and Jenn were just confused and all. We made a wish on a balloon and sent it in the air. I love my life. I love my friends. I love everything I've become and it's just seriously amazing how my life has changed within just one years time.

I'm okayyyy, it'll be alright again :D

TOMORROW. TOMORROW! TOMORROW!!!!!!

-Game day:
-Hanging out with my boyfriend
-Chillin' in the BR
-Bus ride
-Game
-Bus ride
-Car ride
-HOEBAG'S BIRTHDAY!!! I cannot wait to hangout with my girls. I've missed them oh so very much.
-I'm so excited that I just can't stand it.

-Tomorrow promises to be wonderful.


But today was weird.
-daily routine.
-almost fell asleep in third period. Sudafed is supposed to make you hyper but for some reason it has the opposite effect on me. Bah.
-spent quality time with the copier.
-left Ward to his saxophone practicing
-had a creepy dude chatting with Jenn and I.
-Ms.Shirley forgot us ;)
-ate at Bojangles with mommy, mamaw, papaw and Em.
-studied a little while
-watched wheel of fortune
-wore my mamaw's snuggie
-drove the new ford f150
-came home
-packed a bunch of crap
-chatting with Joe and he actually had to erase his inbox because of me. Hhahahahahah :)


My life is so crazy. I fall deeper for that boy every day. I listen to Sugarland til the point where it drives everyone in my house crazy. I feel like I never have time to sleep and watch movies like I used to. There's so much stuff going on. It's like we get a break, but it's not really a break at all. It's a work fest. It's insane. I just want time to lay around and be lazy, but it's not going to happen for a while. Oh well, I quite enjoy my crazy chaotic life. It's what makes me happy. <3


Oh, and whoever reads this: Joey says for me to tell my bloggers he says hey. :)

Seems so small..

I miss my girls.

Claire & Macey.

It's been FOREVER since i've seen either of them. They are precious and I love them more than my life. It's so cool to get updates from Kelly on how they are and the things going on in their lives. It never ceases to amaze me how God places these people in my life for a reason. He put those two kids in my life to show me that sometimes when life is tough, you just have to get back on your feet and have fun while you can. Claire and I have been so close for the past two summers. She makes my life so much more interesting. I miss her so much. I just met her little sister Macey last summer and she is precious. Kelly their mommy always says "we miss you and we love you". They've taken me in and made me feel loved. I never knew being so close to little kids would bring me opportunities like the ones I've had. I love my girls. More than life. No one will ever take that away. ♥

9.17.2010

September Seventeenth Twenty Ten will be two months ago tomorrow. I'm so lucky to have such a wonderful boyfriend. I was talking to Jessi yesterday about her relationship issues and I was like Ward and I were friends for a while before we started dating. We didn't just rush into things. We took the time to talk and be best friends. To this day, he's one of my best friends. He's seen me angry, hurt, in sweatpants, no makeup, pissed, upset and still chooses me. It blows my mind. I never thought anyone would actually choose to put up with my complaining and bipolar mood issues. It just seriously blows my mind. He's amazing and wonderful even though he kisses me when he's SICK and knows i'm a germ freak. He says he loves me more, but germs and me just aren't friends, so there. He's stolen my heart and I wouldn't trade that for anything, ever. I just wish I could stop time and it could be like this forever and ever. I love you, so much.


&+ Supersupersuper excited for this weekend. I freakin' miss my girls. Can't wait to celebrate Ginfo's birthday. She's one of the greatest friends I could have possibly imagined. SOSOSOSO glad high school brought us together :)

and I I I know i'm not perfect :)

Wow. I was going through my facebook feed and apparently everyone is going single. Bah. That's weird. So, I just got the funniest message on facebook. I just find this whole thing amusing. I need to talk to Joey. It will be a wonderful bashing conversation. I can't wait. I mean, bhahahahahahha, i'm almost peeing myself now. So, today I kinda felt like butt. I got to school and I found out more drama that I didn't want to hear about and crap. But third period rolled around and I finally got to talk to that boy of mine. I miss him like crazy. I don't like this not seeing him thing, but i'ma have to get used to that at some point. Bah. I'm wearing my sexy sweatpants and talking to my wonderfully sexy boyfriend. Hahhaha, oh how I love our conversations. I'm listening to Sugarland and I'm completely in love with their song Every Girl Like Me. I texted Kelly today and she told me Macey lost her first tooth last night. I miss those girls. All three of them. They've taken me in and they love me so much. I'd be lost sometimes without my getaway. I'm so happy with Ward. I honestly couldn't imagine life without him. Two months on Wednesday :)

This week:

Tuesday: project time at SDMS
Wednesday and Thursday: Car rides with Jenn-o :)
Friday: Game day, and Haley's birthday party :))))))) SOOO EXCITED.
Saturday: Marching band banquet. Woo.
Sunday: Church & who knows what else.

I love my life. I fee like i'm the luckiest girl in the world. <3

Times change?

Dear bloggers,

I seriously didn't realize how much I talk until now. I have no one to text. Today has been about the most boring day. Ward's sick and isn't texting me, so I have Mel, but her phone doesn't get good signal at her house, so there isn't really much point in trying to have a conversation there..so, I wrote on Ward's wall wishing him to feel better and telling him that Mel doesn't think my sweatpants are sexy when they so are, she's just jealous. I went to my old church today and I haven't been there in like a year and it was so awkward. Emily and I were walking in and someone who should have known both of us asked me who my friend was. I was like holy crap. Did you seriously not recognize me? After growing up there, being in your Sunday school class for at least four years of my life, how can you forget me? Gah. It was so awkward being there. I know I've changed and grown up, but seriously??? It just blew my mind away. Tanya was the only one who actually carried on a conversation with me. Oh how I miss her and Joe, Vince and Jay. They're such great people and I miss seeing them and hanging out. Joey's been one of my friends for a really long time and it makes me sad never to see them. One guy came up to me and told me he thinks that only half of the band should go to the concession stand during third quarter and it was just weird. I wanted to slap him. I've never felt so out of place. Melanie and I are trying to decide on Christmas presents for each other. This is always my favorite time of the year because Christmas and New Years comes and goes and then it's time for February and it's birthday time :D:D:D. I'm thinking I should get started on a Christmas list. *sigh* Guess that's what I'ma do. Yayyy.

Like Bro says, peace&blessings :)

Wind

My life is flashing before my eyes. I wake up and it's rush rush rush. I feel like I never see Ward and that kills me. Last night Caroline got so excited because she found out Ward and I have kissed. Wooohoo! Hahhaha, some characters make my life so much better. Rachel freakin' Whitaker was all up at the game and I saw her and I got all excited! I quite enjoy my many friends. I love seeing their faces every day. I just wish I got to spend as much time with Ward as I do them, and I don't see a lot of them enough. *sigh* I sometimes wish I had enough time to get away. Enough time to calm down and sleep and get everything done without having to rush my life away. I quite enjoy my weekly chat with Brittany. It's nice to have someone who cares even though they don't really have to.

So, I wish I spent more time with my boyfriend. I mean we see each other, but we never get to be alone. I hate that. I hate to be the ridiculous girlfriend, but I can't stand never being with him. There's always someone watching us and it drives me crazy. There's always people that start rumors and stuff too. It's funny to hear what they have to say, but it's so not even close to true. If you really hate me that much, just tell me to my face. Don't make up some rumor that makes absolutely no sense. Ward and I are dating because we like each other. Not because of all the crazy reasons people seemed to have formed. Wednesday it will be two months with him. I'm glad I found him. He has completely taken my heart and I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm falling deeper. I know I am because every time I see him my heart skips a beat. It's crazy, I know, but I love him.

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on." ♥
^That was Kristina's status. I love it.

YOU CRAYON YOU!

So, the group came over for our English project. I'm pretty sure we've created so many new jokes. I quite enjoy how Sarah and I were like cracking up over everything and Lorena and Anna were actually doing work... ahhahahahaha. I quite enjoyed our time.

JOCASTA!!!!!!!!


So, I'm pretty sure Melanie made my day. She was all like you're always gonna be my bestfriend. I love you. Awh. I love her too! The thing about Melanie and me is the fact we're more than just best friends, we're sisters. We argue and fight but in the end we know we're always going to love each other. To be honest, she drives me up the wall 99% of the time, but I trust her more than I trust anyone else. She's my home slice. The star to my burst. She sees the emotions roll through me like i'm a book. I freakin' love her and I never in a million years would've thought we'd last as best friends this long. We're always seen as Carrie & Melanie and I couldn't imagine a day of my life without her. I can honestly see us growing up and having sleepovers when we're like 47 years old. I love you, Brannock :)


I kind of got a lot angry in fourth period. I'm pretty sure someone realized I'm not like anyone else and I will ignore you if you make me angry enough. I was all like it's whatever and they were like I know you don't feel that way. No, I don't feel that way. I don't think it's funny that she wants to 'mess' with me. I personally found nothing remotely funny about it and you should know by now that I hold grudges and stuff. But all in the same, I don't think I could live a day without you now that I've grown so attached to talking to you all the time. You're a part of my life and I honestly love you more than life.


So, I'm kind of excited about this weekend. I get to see the beautiful faces of Haley and Brooklynn :)

Bahhhhhhhhhhh.

Today I discovered a long to-do list:

Wednesday: Lorena, Sarah and Anna over for a project in Noel's class. Woo.

Thursday: band thing and chillin' with my boyfriend :)

Friday: game day.

Saturday: Camp out at Brooklynn's with the bestfriends.

Sunday: chillin' at Mamaw's.


Life is short, and yet we fill it with to-do lists. Hahhaah. <3

So, this week has started out way better and I'm so glad. I wish Jimeson would've been at school today. I just heard the cheesiest message he could have possibly sent. Hahahaha. So, I'm pretty sure my boyfriend digs my sweatpants. I think they're sexy. Hahhahahaahah. Yeeah. I'm also pretty sure he's the only person I can talk to all day long and never run out of things to say. He's one of my best friends. <3

I'm now watching an episode of Rizzoli and Isles and it's not near as freaky as the one I watched yesterday. And I'm getting ready to read post secret. woo hooo :)

Yeah, those pants right there are sexy :)

My boyfriend, oohh my boyfriend.

My mom thinks I talk to him way too much, but I just can't help it. We never run out of things to talk about. He thinks i'm beautiful even if I wear sweatpants (which, might I add, are sexy, haha). He makes me happy. I trust him. Sometimes I wonder what I did before I spent hours texting him during the days. I hate the thought of him going off to college next August, but I'm going to have to get over that. He's supportive and tries to motivate me, but it never works. He's been my rock for the past month and even before when we were just friends. I honestly couldn't think of a better person to say oh yeah, he's my boyfriend. He's seriously the sweetest person ever and I love to wake up the next day excited to see him. Ward, I love you. ♥