Teaaachhh meee, teachh me, teeeacch me!

So, you know what makes me happy?

First: I wake up and text my most favorite person ever. She borrowed my sunglasses yesterday, and I get on facebook this morning and they're on her head in her new profile picture. I love her. ♥

Second: I get up and get ready and then I get a 'good morning sunshine' text.

You don't even know how much this makes my day so much better. You're my best friend.

You're here when i'm upset, and you listen to all my venting; you make me happy; when a lot of the time, i'm not.. ♥

So, in my AP World class, I have made a new friend. Finally. I sit right behind Bailey and I finally remembered to text her. Hahahhah. We always have great conversations while we wait for lunchtime. I'm so glad she sits there. Otherwise, i'd have to talk to Matthew. Ewh.

So, thank you Lord for Brittany. I don't know what I'd have done without her yesterday. She's my rock. There when I need someone to listen. You're awesome. I love you.

So, I really really really really miss Haley and Brooke. I pass by Haley every single day and i'm like 'I love her. I really miss her.' and then Anna's like you've told me.. like every single day. Hahahha, guess I repeat myself, a lot.



And, Haley, thanks for being such an awesome person. So so so so so glad you're there for me to talk to you always. I love you!

Everybodyyy wants a thrillll!

Dear Bloggers,

Today:

Before school: Texts from bestfriend and chillin' at Mamaw's. Filing music in the library. Savannah asked if we actually played music. She's cool.

First: Mini field trip. Shannon and I hung out while we did that. Hahah.

Second: No AC. Great. 84 degrees in C building. No bueno.

Third: I love third period. Mr.Wogatzke is awesome.

Fourth: Marching band, outside. EWEWEW, but afterwards, sat on Tonya's bus and talked to her for a little while, she borrowed my sunglasses, she must be special, I hate for people to take my shades. ♥

After school: Got Emily and came straight home and took a shower. I could feel the sweat dripping down my back. It was gross. No bueno. Next, I read chapter three in All Quiet on the Western Front.

Now: Facebooking. I guess I should be studying something, huh? Yesterday I redid my FB bio. You should read it. That's all. Peace out, yo.

Yeeeeah, party in the USA :)

So, I'm chillin' here after making some pretty sweet binder covers, yo.

One: Melanie and I.
Two: Tonya and I.
Three: Claire, Macey, Maggie, Mollie, Melanie.
Four: Bestfriends :) -Melanie, Brooke, Haley, Brittany, Walter, Alli, Lorena, ♥


I really want this shirt from kerusso that has 'Faith Book' on it.


I finished my homework, heck yes! I've been texting really random people today. Awesome. I figured out there is a way to add music to your blog. Bhaha, heck yes!


I got to sit at church with the beautiful Claire Elizabeth today. I love love love her. I've missed her like crazy. I'm thinking that we need to have a hang out time.

I think we're having pizza for supper. Yumm.

So, my friend is going through a tough time right now. Pray for her, please. ♥

Also, apparently a bunch of people hate me for no reason. I don't understand why. It's not like I sit there and talk to them. I asked WHW if he hated me too, and he said no, you're my best friend. That made me feel slightly better.

My facebook status yesterday was about Walter hating my purple pants. Darren commented me and asked me why Ward's dad hated my purple pants. Hahah, I had to explain that one. Then Ward told me I stuck out like a whore at a Southern Baptist Revival. Hahhaa. Made my day... especially when my mom was like I told you! You should've listened to me. Wow.


This weekend has been exhausting. No bueno. I'm getting ready for another week of school, another week of homework, another week of stealing lemon water from Tonya, another Friday night football game, another stressful weekend. Peace out, yo. ♥

Bah.

Never realized how much someone so small can make you forget about all your worries in the world and just have fun. I miss my Claire, Mollie, Macey and Maggie. They're my kids. I love them more than the wold, and I miss them like crazy. I hope they are at church tomorrow. I need to get away from this insanity of the world.

So, I have a lot of homework that I should probably be doing instead of sitting here on facebook. Bah. This semester is gonna kick my butt. :/

Awh, so sweet!

First day as a sophomore.

Walking to homeroom (which was moved to C9) was no bueno with out Brittany. I hate it.

First period:
I sit at a lab table with Katie SF. That's thrilling. Already had homework on day one. Awesome.


Second Period:
Sarah,Lorena and I went to the bathrooms.. that was lined up out the door, stupid. Then, class started, we got a book today from the library. Homework already, reminding myself that it's only day one.



Third period:
Teacher is HILARIOUS. We filled out an about me form and got our books and such. More papers. He then proceeded to read something from everyone's about me papers. Awesome.


2nd lunch: I ate with Katie, Pete, Dodd, and some random chick named Rachel.


Fourth period:
Marching band, 'nough said.


Afterschoool: First stop, Tonya. Duh. I love her, <3

Alright now, I need to go find those papers we got at school today, yo.

I hope everyone had a wonderful day.. I know mine was way tough, though.

Let's buy a ticket to see the Wiggles!

So, I got to see Brittany's beautiful face over skype today. I was just so excited. We looked though the 'Awesome Box' and I semi met her roommate and I got to see how messy her side of the room is and how clean her roommate's is. Hahahah. I miss that woman... now the question is... how am I gonna talk my father into letting me get a webcam so that I can talk to Miss Clark whenever I feel like it, yo. So, Melanie and I are watching Glee and chatting it up with Brooklyn on skype, also i'm chatting with best friend on facebook. I'm concerned about them... they are talking about the Wiggles?! So, this creeper guy is stalking Melanie and he's on skype now.. BAHAHHA. Love her. So, I'm so ready for school to start... uh, tomorrow is the big day. Hallelujah. I can't wait. So, Brooke is leaving us on skype, byebye Brookieee, <3 you.

I'm letting go...

Dearest bloggers,


I came to a realization yesterday. A realization that what I did last year wasn't right. I sat around and ignored all those people who were my friends before for those seniors that I thought were my friends then. Now that they are away at college, they live in a world where I'm not needed anymore. I realized this yesterday. I had a little venting session with best friend at like ten thirty last night because something someone said really got to me. It made me want to punch someone in the face. I used to be the freshman with the senior friends. I forgot about those who had been there for me since the beginning of this new place in my life. The people who have my back no matter how angry we get at each other. It's not fair to them for me to sit around and talk crap about them. I'm not going to do that anymore. I'm going to stay friends with the people my age and not try to become best friends with those seniors who are gonna leave me, or in my case have already moved on. They made their mark in my life, but it's time for me to let go, and I realized this yesterday. Letting go is not as hard as I thought it would be. I have a strong support system here, and i'll be okay. The seniors who graduated are still my friends and I love all of them, but seriously, who is gonna stay friends while they are off having the times of their lives. It's okay. I understand now. I'm not gonna force you to remain friends with me. I'm good. I'll stick with where I belong for today. I've found my group, I've found my place, it's not gonna stay that way forever, but for now is all I need. With love,
CMillaaa, <3


Now, I'm chillin' with Brannock watching Rizzoli and Isles, this is freaky, but I love it. Hahaha, band rehearsal tonight, what fun. School starts tomorrow, hallelujah. I'm so ready. Gonna start my day in the band hall and then end the day out by the buses with a hug from the greatest person ever. I'm so excited. I miss her. Can't wait for fourth period, it'll be the shizz. <3

Random emotions, yo.

So, I really hate liars.

Don't tell me we are going to be best friends and then sit around and ignore me. Don't tell me you're not going to forget about me and then pretend I don't exist. Don't tell me you're gonna text me back and then let me sit around waiting. I'm tired of this. Tired of it.


Anyways funny thing from yesterday:
Me: What's up with all these old pictures on fb?!
Tonya: I took pictures of a picture.
-She's crazy, but I still love her all the same.


I miss the people of day camp. Claire Elizabeth texted me on Kelly's phone yesterday. I miss them so much. I can't wait til they get home from the beach and I can finally hang out with them.

So, I'm ready for school to start. I'm tired of sitting around my house waiting on daddy and Emily to wake up and then doing nothing. It sucks.

I have no classes with my best friends which is kind of a bummer on life. They're my rocks, and it's kind of hard for that to work out when they aren't there. Bah.

I'm getting ready for a flashback from the past. South Davie open house is tonight for Emily. Boy, won't that be peachy fun. Guessing I'ma go chill in McClamrock's room for a while. Hahah, win.

I'm ready for things to go back to normal. For time to calm down. For things to become a regular schedule. This random stuff is killing me. I'm so tired all the time. I guess that means I should sleep more, huh?

I miss my friends that went away to college. I wish them all the best. It looks like they are having the time of their lives, without me, but it's time for me to let go and move on. They don't need me anymore. I'll get my turn at all the fun, later.

Oh, and also, I'm really tired of this person stalking me and like freaking out because I don't want to date him. Just get over it. He doesn't understand that liking someone else doesn't mean I wanna date someone else. It's not like I have any way to go out on a date anyway, which kind of limits those options, budd.

So, every time I get a text thinking it's someone cool that will make interesting conversation. I look down and it's just Mel. We have the dumbest conversations. Bah.

We all need somebody to lean on..

So, how about I have a really awesome group of friends?


Haley- my betrothed, my hoebag, my love. Hahah, she's so funny. We crank up the music when California Gurls comes on. Bhaha, that was great. I love her.

Brooke- Bro. She's my riding partner. We'll get our licenses the same day. Heck yes! I love her.

Melanie- Duh, best friend for life. Knows me better than anyone. I love her and her whack family.

Jennifer- Why do you let Alli corrupt you? You make me giggle. <3

Alli- She has no common sense, but she makes me laugh til I pee myself.

Best friends are the key to making it through life because you can't tell your parents everything.

Ms.Tonya- She's crazy. Also, she hates the way I follow her around with a camera. She has me laughing til I pee all the time. Love you bunches. <3

Walter Howard Wilson III- Poke wars are the shizz. We have some weird conversations, but I figure we could probably talk about anything. <3


These people are part of my world. Some I know better than others, but I know that this group of people will be there for me no matter what happens as we get older. They are the people I'd lean on when times get hard. <3

3.5 hours of sleep...

So, I'm exhausted. I'll continue this in the morning.
XOXO

Fyi... this is my SOAP for today.

Brittany Clark is the best best friend that I could have and this whole blog post is for her.

First of all, I know I can tell her anything in the world and it will remain between us for always. Second, story time is always my favorite. Phone calls are the best. I mean linky linky linky. Bahah, we have so many inside words that mean absolutely nothing that it just makes me giggle. She like to roll her eyes at me because I don't understand all her gaming stuff for her ps3. Therefore, I am truely going to miss seeing her beautiful face around Davie High. This past year, where ever she was... I was there. Right beside her. Leeeeeching for dear life. Hahah. We've been through our share of arguements... but thankfully that crap is over. I'm hoping nothing crazy happens and our friendship goes BOOM. I don't think I could handle losing another person. She's definitely one of my biggest influences. She talked me into becoming one of those crazy band geeks... and that makes me giggle. My world from last year is prolly gonna be so different than it will be the rest of my three years. My group of friends was my world.... and they still are.. no matter how far away we are. Brittany has been my rock for this year and I hope she contines to be. I tell her all importance and that's what keeps us in the know. We're the coolest two people ever, and everyone I know, knows that she is one of those people I look up to for everything. I talk about her all the time. I'm truely going to miss her. Anyway, Miss Clark, I love what you have changed about me. I'm more outspoken, annoying, and crazy than I was at the beginning of ninth grade. I'm finding where I belong in the world and watching the people around me is how I'm doing that. I'm always in awe when I watch Brittany play music. She amazes me with all that talent. I'm so jealous. Anyways, I wish you the best years of your life to come. I'm going to miss you more than the world. We best be friends for the rest of our lives.... otherwise no one will understand how to react to slutbucketing. With much love, XOXO, Carrie (:

Laughter is the key :)

There is one week and three days before school starts again. One week. Three days.


This week:

Monday and Tuesday: band camp.
Wednesday: Carowinds with Brannock?
Thursday: Doctor, hanging out with Mamaw, open house at school.
Friday: Girls night at Haley's.
Saturday: Jeana's bridal shower.

Busy week ahead of me... what fun...

So, Friday night I get a phone call from my favorite little girl on this planet. Claire called to tell me how much she misses me and how much fun the beach is. I love her. Then like a whole ten seconds after I hang up the phone with her... Tonya calls. I just love her. I'd definitely be missing out on a whole lot of laughter if i'd never met her. Tonya and I had an interesting week. She's one person I know I could talk to about anything. I woke up Saturday morning and then I turn around and get another phone call from her telling me about all the excitement going on in the hood at like five thirty that morning. Bahhaha. She's so brave. I'd be freaked to live out there. So, looking back on this past summer... I think I've decided that it's time for me to move on... to look on into my future. Working with kids is inspiring. They really appreciate what you do for them in more ways than you realize. I look up to those counselors that were there for me when I was younger and now I'm just realizing those kids looked up to me. I'm so glad I got to watch them grow on a personal basis. Not just growing up, but becoming stronger through the faith of Jesus. I do believe though, that my time has ended at that part of my world. I'm becoming more involved where I go to church and the kids are a huge part of it. I'm ready for where life is leading. I've made friends out of some really great people that I hope stick with me. I'm not supposed to stay in one place forever.. and I'm glad some people understand how hard it is having to let go. Letting go is something that I've had to work really hard at this year. Oh well. I've found my best friend. I've found that adult figure I look up to more than anything. I've found my place for now and that satisfies me. ♥

Sugarland Countdown :)

53 days until I see my most favorite duo on this planet. That's all.

It's you and me and all other people :)

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn? That's alright, because I like the way it hurts.... yeah, I love the way you lie.






I'm putting on my shades to cover up my eyes,
I'm jumpin' in my ride,
I'm heading out tonight,
I'm solo, I'm riding solo,
I'm riding solo, I'm riding solo, sooloooo.







When I was younger,
I saw my daddy cry,
And cursed at the wind,
He broke his own heart,
And i watched,
As he tried to re-assemble it,

And my momma swore,
that she would never let herself forget,
And that was the day that I promised,
I'd never sing of love,
If it does not exist,

But darlin',
You, are, the only exception
But, you, are, the only exception
But, you, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception.



These songs have captured my interest lately. I love them. Melanie and I jam when we're in the car. This week has been interesting. From band camp to surprising my girls at day camp.. to hanging out in children's church with Claire and Macey, my girlie pies. This is the LAST week of day camp before school starts. I'm not sure if I'm ready for this part of my life to be over yet.. but it is coming.. and coming faster than I wish to believe. This is probably going to be the last summer I'm going to be a free person... not tied down by the workforce. Unfortunately, my father told me I have to have a real job next summer... won't this be fun... getting my license in May though. That excites me greatly. I've been searching for my place in this world. I've found my best friend who knows me better than anyone. We're together so much... it's like i'm part of her family.. and vice versa. I've found my favorite person, and that is not likely to change for a while. I love her more than the world and everyone around me knows that. I watched Charlie St.Cloud today and that story is about how saving someone's life can help them save someone else in the future. And, how sometimes you just have to let go of people and move on. Seeing this movie touched me, considering I have problems with letting go. It just hurts. I'm so ready for The Last Song to come out on DVD. That book/movie are both AMAZING. I loved them both. I'm considering reading it again because I love it. I'm preparing myself for the beginning of sophomore year.. walking down the halls without my former group of friends standing there.. walking to first period without Brittany. It's kind of a bummer, but maybe i'll make new friends. And, I'm going to miss Jamie because of all his slutbucket comments in my ear. They make me giggle to the extreme. I'm in for a headache of people this year since pretty much everyone gets on my nerves. Walter and I decided to be best friends this year. We're working on a super cool handshake. Hahah, yesss! I'm where I am for a reason. It'll all work out in the end. I'm ready for my life to come to a calm place where I'm not so exhausted all the time, but i'm pretty sure that it's just getting started. And here I will close with one of my all time favorite quotes from someone who I barely knew, but they still meant a lot to me, "If life gives you lemons, then you are gonna have a frown on your face."

It's like REVERSE CHEMO! Hahaha (:

So, this morning was interesting. Woke up. Ate one of those really awesome Special K bars. Headed off to my grandparents house so that Papaw could drop me off at school at 7:15. I was at school by then, but none of the 'cool kids' were there, so Rebecca and I stood outside until they got their butts to the lovely DCHS. I then proceeded to run/ more of a collide with Brittany as soon as I saw her. Today, tooodddayy was just peachy fun. I remembered how much I dislike the fundamentals of marching band. They suck, but it so happened that I had major catch up time with Miss Clark. I had forgotten how long it's been since we've seen each other. It's been non stop talking all day long. I love it. I love the 'reverse chemo.' Hahhaahaha. Lunch was cool. Jamie, Brittany, Melanie and I packed in one car... Pete and Nick came in the other and we headed off to lunch at the lovely Shiki of Mocksville. Mmm, so I really love the fact that I got to spend all day with my lil high school graduate. She's muh home skillet. I've missed her... and i'm still not sure how high school life is going to be without her. It's going to be a slutbucketless world, and that just is NOT cool. I'll be all alone in this world of darkness. But on the bright side, Tonya thinks it's funny that I actually thought she'd miss me at camp. Hahaha, I love her too. She misses me, I know it. Oh well, just wait til I see her next Monday. It'll be ONNN! So, I'm listening to the radio and California Girls is on. This song is getting on my nerves. Bah. This is enough for now. Laterr ♥

♥

These 5 people are my world. Nothing is going to change that. I'm planning to be here for those girls as a friend, counselor, mentor, and just a positive influence. God has placed me in their lives and I love all four of them to death. I'd do anything for them. They've taken my heart away. ♥