Amazing, so wonderful, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

This week I've been going through so many emotions. I think it finally hit ms that the love of my life is leaving for college in now less than two weeks. I don't like never seeing him. It freaks me out. Also, when I have a bad day his hugs usually make everything better. I don't think it's possible to find a better boyfriend. I mean, yeah, we get into disagreements, but we talk it out and everything is okay again. Like, you don't even understand what it's like going through this. Ward's always telling me I don't understand, but yeah, it sucks. It hurts so much to never see him, and I'm not ready, but I have to be. I'm determined to see him next Wednesday. I will get to say goodbye. I honestly don't know how I am going to handle this. But I have the best friends and now the people at church who would be there for me in a minute. I cry all the time, I just can imagine it being worse when he leaves. I just don't know what I'm gonna do. It's gonna be so weird, but on the other hand, I love him so much and I know we're perfect together and God will help us stay together through this mess. I find myself going to everyone else first and I realize I need to pray before I even start pouring my heart out to anyone else. I'm very lucky to have found someone who completes me. It's like the greatest feeling ever to know I'm in love with my best friend. Knowing you can trust someone with anything is like amazing. I love that I fall more in love every day. I am blessed beyond words. I'm gonna attempt to be happy now instead of crying myself to sleep over things I can't change. I love Ward more than life, I just wish people could understand but no one else knows the feeling, so it's so hard to tell people what's going on. I honestly can't wait to see what the future holds for him. He will be an amazing band director. I'm very proud to say he's mine. I wouldn't trade that for anything in this entire world.

Just a Kiss on Your Lips in the Moonlight

Friday:

Left Haley's and spent a wonderful day with my boyfriend!!!

Saturday: Slept until around 9:30, went to my mom's cousin's wedding, drove thru Bojangles. Got Emily's friend and off to the mall we go. I got two new pairs of jeans, a cami and a little dress thingy. After that, mommy takes us to Krispy Kreme. Mmmmm, hot and now doughnuts are absolutely wonderful, like you don't even know. Anyways, I went to bed feeling dizzy and it wasn't cool.

Sunday:
Ten Months with the greatest boyfriend ever.



Woke up and headed off to church. Sunday school was hilarious because of Ms.Joanna and her crazy stories. We went to Shiki for lunch and the lady was amusing because she made fun of Ward. That was pretty funny. Next we drove to Statesville and saw Cars 2. Hhahaha, it could've been way better. Then we went to Starbucks. MMMmmm, good. Next we traveled back to lil ole Mocksville and hung around at the park until it was time for Ward to go home so him and his mother and brother could go see Harry Potter. I get to see it tomorrow. I'm psyched, heck yes! But anyways, hopefully this week will go by fast. Hopefully I'll read lots of pages in Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix and then attempt to finish the series.

That's all for now.

Peace and Blessings, as brother would say.

The Sun Will Come Out Tomorrow

I've been dreaming of a true love's kiss.

And by the way, this blog is for my brother.

My brother is the coolest. I couldn't ask for a better bro. She's the man. Hahaha, I love all the lovely pitchaas that end up on my iPod because of her.

Wanna know what annoys me? People when you're like yeah, you're gonna watch this movie with me and then you go watch it with your other best friend. Also when you "forget" to text me when you get home. Bull crap. Also the fact that your mother likes your newest best friend better than me. It's kind of ridiculous if you ask me.

Anyways, my life has been consumed by babysitting, baseball and my boyfriend. I see Mel about once a week and Brooke and Haley every once in a while. Marching band is going to consume my life even more soon. Ug. I'm NOT excited, which reminds me, I need to print off music. Meanwhile in the hectic life I have, I've started to finish reading the Harry Potter series.

Also, my boyfriend is pretty awesome. We'll have been dating for 10 months on Sunday! I love every minute I spend with him. I wouldn't trade that for anything. I'm super excited for the craziness life brings us each month we're together. We've gotten so close. I love it so much.

I ate a confetti pancake for breakfast this morning. It was interesting. I'm kinda tired, so i'm gonna drink some more cheerwine and attempt to stay up.

Like brother says,
Peace and blessings.

Ain't Nothin' Better Than Tractor Paradin'

Happy 4th of July everyone!

1 down, 5 to go. I think I can do this?

So, last year around April, I became friends with you. One day we decided to become best friends and said we were gonna come up with some super awesome handshake(which we never did because we easily forget things) We sat together at graduation. We texted all through the summer. By the time August rolls around, we are texting every day. Like as much as possible. September rolls around and you're my boyfriend:D It's crazy how much time has flown by. Now it's June and we've been dating for a little over nine months. Yeah, we may get in silly arguments, but you are always the first person I want to talk to afterwards. I think about us all day long. I have crazy dreams and think about fishes. You have stolen my heart and made me feel incredibly special, you make me feel important. I know you're going to always be there to protect me. I really can't stand being apart, but I mean, I guess that's what happens when you fall in love. This no phone thing is driving me up the wall because I pick up my phone to tell you something funny and then I remember you left it at home. Ug. I love how people watch us and ask me what's going to happen when you leave for college and your reply is that we're staying together. I love how people are jealous of our relationship and how we can talk about anything. I trust you with my life, and that's a lot. I definitely wouldn't have made it through this year without you. I'm happy. You're happy. We can be happy fishes together. You hold my heart, please don't stomp on it and break it. I seriously don't think I could handle that again. I really despise this no phone on your mission thingy because I won't get to tell you I love you every day. I'm praying for y'all and all you're doing in Lenior, but I'm ready for you to come home. I miss you already. Goodnight sunshine :(

Tetris Addict.

Cause, I'm knee deep in the water somewhere, got the blue sky breeze blowing wind through my hair, only worry in the world is the tide gonna reach my chair. Sunrise, there's a fire in the sky. Never felt so happy, never felt so high. I think I might have found me my own kind of paradise. -Zac Brown Band and Jimmy Buffett.

This song always puts me in a really happy mood. I love the Zac Brown Band.

So, I spent most of all day Friday with Ward. We're so close. I'm so in love. It's crazy. He's my other half. We always make fishy faces at each other. It's so amusing. He left for mission trip today. That was sad. I won't get to talk to him until Saturday. Ug. I'm going to miss him so so so so so much. I can't wait until he returns. I am going to go insane while he's gone. Yesterday I spent all day with Melanie. I love her. She's my best friend ever. I've missed her so so so so much. Her birthday is tomorrow. WOOOOO! She'll be 16. I know she's been counting it down.

Anyways, I hope this week flies by.

Time time time

I need to start blogging again.

Tomorrow starts day one of super awesome summer with Clairebear and Macey (: