How do you know he loves you?

Who am I kidding? No one finds the love of their life when they're 15 years old. Why can't relationships happen like in fairytales? Why can't everyone be a Cinderella or a Gisselle? I'm so jealous of all these girls who know what they're going to do with their lives. It's crazy to think, but two more years of school and I'm out in the world alone. I'm not sure where I want to go to school or what I want to major in. Watching Ward go through the college process is insane. There's so much stress and so much to do and you barely have time to do anything else but paperwork. I'm dreading the papers and applications and craziness, but I'm feeling that the time is coming. The time is coming to where I've got to get away from the big ole DC and make something of myself. I want to get married and have babies and enjoy my time here on earth. I want to live in my fairytale. But anyways, I'm really proud of Ward and his college decision. He got the Teaching Fellows Scholarship to Western and was one of the 3 saxophones picked to be in the studio. He's my best friend in all of the world. He knows exactly what to say to everything. I'm super thankful that God put him back in my life. I am going to miss him like crazy next year. Like you don't even know. He's my rock, and will be forever. I've already decided that I'm going to find a way to go visit him. I really, really wonder what I ever did without him. I'm dreading the day if graduation. I'm dreading the day I have to tell him goodbye and won't see him for months straight. Ug, it's going to kill me, but he's promised me lots of skype dates, so I will be fine. I am Carrie Miller, and there is no one like me.

This weekend promises to be exciting because I'm going to help my brother find her prom dress. I can't wait (: