I Close My Eyes

I started the 100 picture challenge today. I'm kinda excited because I love pictures.

I was looking through some old ones today and I saw my god awful sunglasses line and it made me miss my tan and sunlight and pools and happiness. I miss waking up and having fun with kids all day. I miss not worrying about who texted me until after five and then falling asleep texting Ward and waking up to a message saying "you fell asleep!" I miss when all I cared about was spending time with Melanie and going to Carowinds. I miss killing myself at band camp because I've forgotten what it's like to be outside and being productive. I miss car rides with the slutbucket and trips to Miller's against my will. I miss going on field trips and hanging out with Jenny. I love her. I miss crazy adventures with Ms.Tonya and going to youth camp with her and Krista. Life during the summer is a crazy rush. I can't wait for this summer when I get to spend all day with Clairebear and Macey and have every Friday off. I can't wait for summer and being tan and hanging out with my best friends and being awesome. Sunlight brings happiness, warmth and love. Winter just brings nasty coldness and hate. I'm glad the weather is warming up.

I'm dreading the day of graduation. I'm not ready for Ward to leave. He is a wonderful best friend. I couldn't ask for a better person to just sit and rant to. I probably would punch me in the face. He makes me incredibly happy. I really wouldn't trade that for anything. I don't know what I'd do without him. God obviously put him in my life for a reason. We're really close, we were before and we are after. I love it. I know he's going to be there for me through everything forever. No matter where life takes us.

Like Allison said at church today, God created us to forgive others. I'm working on it. I want to be an example for my girls. I want to shine with the spirit of Christ. I want to be an example that parents want for their kids. I don't want to be left behind.