I'm letting go...

Dearest bloggers,


I came to a realization yesterday. A realization that what I did last year wasn't right. I sat around and ignored all those people who were my friends before for those seniors that I thought were my friends then. Now that they are away at college, they live in a world where I'm not needed anymore. I realized this yesterday. I had a little venting session with best friend at like ten thirty last night because something someone said really got to me. It made me want to punch someone in the face. I used to be the freshman with the senior friends. I forgot about those who had been there for me since the beginning of this new place in my life. The people who have my back no matter how angry we get at each other. It's not fair to them for me to sit around and talk crap about them. I'm not going to do that anymore. I'm going to stay friends with the people my age and not try to become best friends with those seniors who are gonna leave me, or in my case have already moved on. They made their mark in my life, but it's time for me to let go, and I realized this yesterday. Letting go is not as hard as I thought it would be. I have a strong support system here, and i'll be okay. The seniors who graduated are still my friends and I love all of them, but seriously, who is gonna stay friends while they are off having the times of their lives. It's okay. I understand now. I'm not gonna force you to remain friends with me. I'm good. I'll stick with where I belong for today. I've found my group, I've found my place, it's not gonna stay that way forever, but for now is all I need. With love,
CMillaaa, <3


Now, I'm chillin' with Brannock watching Rizzoli and Isles, this is freaky, but I love it. Hahaha, band rehearsal tonight, what fun. School starts tomorrow, hallelujah. I'm so ready. Gonna start my day in the band hall and then end the day out by the buses with a hug from the greatest person ever. I'm so excited. I miss her. Can't wait for fourth period, it'll be the shizz. <3