Should I give up, or should I just keep chasing pavements?

I feel kind of empty. I don't really have much to say, which is weird. I've read two books and started on another in the past 3 days. I wish I could understand why I feel like vomiting and crying when I should feel happy and excited. My birthday is in 3 days. I cannot wait. I'll be 16, but no license til May 3rd. Oh well, it's better than not at all. I miss how I used to fall asleep texting and my battery would be low by the end of the day, but that hasn't been the case lately, and I miss it. I'm so ready to get back to school. Honestly, I cannot wait to start new classes, but the only person I really want to see is my boyfriend. I wish I got to see him more than I do. I miss him terribly, and I feel like I haven't seen him or talked to him in days and I worry too much and worrying plus not hearing anything for over 24 hours makes me feel sick to my stomach. I don't know what to do. It's hard to take your mind off of something that means so much to you.