And I'm alive and well, Your spirit is within me, because You died and rose again.

So, two days ago, my heart was completely broken into ten billion pieces. I was hurt and cried and thought that the world had definitely come to an end. He was my best friend. He was my life. But, things happen. And if I had been him, I probably would have done the same thing. There's no possible way for me to be angry at him because I know he just did that because he needs to follow his dreams without having to make time to see me, even though that would have been nice. He's still my very best friend and I know he'll be there for me whenever I need him for the rest of forever. I just wish it didn't have to go away so soon. I've been amazed by how many people have given me hugs and sent texts and called and have been concerned about me. This hit me pretty hard and I didn't want to believe it happened. I couldn't sleep at all on Sunday night and it was pretty terrible. I never knew this is what people went through during a heart break. It's awful. I don't see why people even put themselves through relationships now, knowing that will probably be the outcome. I've decided that I'm not dating any one else the rest of high school, unless Ward decides to change his mind. He'd be the only one I'd consider. But, there's no way I'm dealing with the pain of this stuff anymore through high school. I miss how my life was last semester. I really do. I feel so alone in the world, even though I have all of my friends supporting me. I haven't eaten anything in hardly 4 days. I feel so lost. I just don't know what to do.