Amazing love.. how can it be??

For those of you who actually care; these past weeks have been a complete blur.

1. School ended.
We got schedules and such. I have to call to get mine repaired. Fail on the guidance department.

2. Day Camp starts:
First week went well. I love being a counselor. The little kids are the whole reason I wake up and get ready to start celebrating Jesus. Another thing is, I LOVE seeing the beautiful Tonya every day. She's so funny, and I know I can talk to her about everything. I apologized for calling her an old lunch lady today. She said, 'LORD YES! I forgive you!' Ahh, she's amazing. Hugs from her are the most special thing about my day. It wouldn't be the same without her.
I start out my day walking through the doors of the wonderful Blaise Baptist Church. I then play with the little kids in the Youth Room 'til it's time for Ms.Tonya and I to load up the bus and head to MES for breakfast. (School food is gross. I do not eat it. I go for the ride.) Then it's time to come back. I help with the assembly and then it's time to chill with prek/k. When they are in bible drills and fun in the son, I go help with the first and second grade group (Ms.Tonya's). Around lunchtime, I normally chill with whatever group needs my help. I'd do anything in the world for some of those people. They are amazing.
This week has brought me closer to Jesus. I think it's seeing God through the eyes of a six year old, and through the eyes of a 47 year old that has changed my perspective. God is love. God is hope. God is my all. I have been reminded how important He is in my life. I'm done with fighting things out. I'm done with drama. I'm ready for God's plan. I'm ready for what is in store for me.

3. Sadness:
This past Sunday I had to watch one of the most amazing people I know... walk away. I met Darren somewhere around four or so years ago. He's not been a constant figure in my life, but this past August, we started attending FUMC in town. Having had his ex-wife, Crystal, as a minister, I wasn't sure how much I was going to like him. I know that I'm not as close to him as others were, but he's impacted my life with just being there and telling me how amazing I am. I balled as soon as I left church, and I normally don't cry. It was awful. I love his sermons. He's such a great guy. I wish he could stay there longer, but God is calling him to change other people's lives. To have the impact that he had on my life. I'm so appreciative of that. I just wish he could know.

4. Baseball games:
My, my, my. Cindy never fails to make me laugh. We eat McDonald's and do the craziest things. She's great. I love her and her slightly twisted sense of humor.

5. Mel's Party:
She's finally fifteen. We are so alike and yet soooo very different. I'm glad I have her as a bestfriend. I know she'll be there for me through everything. Fights and drama. Friends stick together, forever.

6. Brittany:
Dearest, I need a piccolo. Anyway, I've forgotten how silly our conversations are. Yesterday, I talked to her longer than I have in the past week. She makes me giggle. It's amazing how close we became over the past few months. She's helped me make big decisions and such. I'm truly going to miss her smiling face when I stand in front of the band room. She's been a big part of who I am today. We're not the same person, but we've got a lot of the same views on life. I definitely think I found my place, but it feels like I'm going to have to start all over again. I'm not worried about next year anymore. It's going to be okay. I have a feeling that anytime either Brittany or I need something, we'll be there for each other in a heartbeat. She's great for just talking out things. I can trust her with anything.

I hope everyone is having a great summer. Mine has started out wonderful. I'm not so sure I'll be too thrilled when it comes time for school to start up again.
♥CMillaaa