Here's my million dollar question of the day: Why do we judge people by their looks? Ew, he's ugly. Ew, he's fat. Ew, they look like they don't bathe. I'm guilty of doing this also. I'm horrible at judging, but I realize that my judgments are almost always wrong. I don't like those people who automatically think i'm a horrible person because of what someone else said about me. Most of the time people just start rumors because they have no life. I don't like those people who think they are always superior either. The group I've surrounded myself with are the most strange, most amazing people on this planet. Today, I went and visited Ms.Miller. I honestly think what she wrote in my yearbook was one of the most amazing things ever. She's been one of the most hard core influences in my life. I know I could go talk to her about anything and she'd be there for me in less than a minute. When I was in her class, we did anything from meditating in a bowling alley to wearing our pants on the ground to having once a month brownie club meetings. I miss her more than ever. Her stories and advice are some of the most incredible things I've ever heard. She's one of my heroes. The people I'd like to say something about that influence my everyday are... Haley, she's one of the most hilarious, most amazing bestfriends I've ever had. I don't know why it took us this long to discover an amazing friendship. Alli, dear heavens, this girl and I have been through it all, but we've also remained friends in the end. She's an amazing person and I'm lucky to have someone like her in my life. Brooklyn, she's the most funny, most random person I've ever met. I didn't really know her til this year and I'm sure we're gonna have more fantastic years together. Lorena, gah. I've known her forever. We've been through thick and thin since 1st grade. Wow, that's a really long time. Melanie, I've known her since sixth grade, but our friendship didn't really spark til this year. Ever since Marching band, we've been attached. Emily, oh goodness, she's so funny. I love that I got to know her this year. Felicia, I remember when I first met her; I didn't like her at all, but now I can tolerate her just a tad bit more, ahhaha, just kidding. Hannah, I missed you! We're lunch buddies. I don't think I'd have had it any other way. She's a really sweet person and I'm glad I got to know her before she leaves. Rachel, I hope you die. Hahahha, just kidding. You're a fantastic person and I'm glad I've got to become your friend. Cindy, oh my gosh. I always have the greatest time with her. I'm not even sure how we became sooooo close. We've been close going on four years. I can't believe it's been that long. She's the batman to my robin and that's how it will stay. Forever and always. Ms.Tonya, I love you, I go see her after school and sometimes before. It's hard to believe that I've only known her for about four years, too. She's been there for me always and I'm so very appreciative of her. I love her to death, and I'm always going to. Miss Macey, she's who I like to say is my big sis. She would be who I ate lunch with last semester. She's who I talked about everything with. She's the most beautiful person ever. Then, last but definitely not least, there's Brittany. I've already said ten million things about her, but I need to close this off with the person I've attached myself most to. I started out at the beginning of this year with Marching band camp. Brittany was the section leader and I was just the little freshman everyone made fun of. I'm not exactly sure how this friendship happened, but now we talk all the time about everything. About life, about drama, about relationships, about silly things and this list could go on and on. I'm not sure what exactly will happen when she leaves, but I'm sure she'll be fine... I'm so gonna try to be. Brittany is the most amazing musician I have personally met and no this is not me being at all biased. She's taught me that you don't have to give a single thought to what people say about you. True or not. Just be your own person. Don't bother with tiny little buttheads. And as everyone knows, I could go on and on, but I'll stop. I'm sitting here uploading these pictures to facebook and it is taking ten thousand years, but it also doesn't help if I took over two hundred in the past two days. I have five days left before I close out my entire freshman year. This year has been the best year of my life. From silly marching band bus rides to Walt Disney World to hanging out in the band room, these people have become my life. Some of them will move on and never give keeping in touch a second thought, some of them will keep in touch for maybe a year and then dwindle away, but some will keep me in their hearts forever. I hope who ever reads this understands how much I care about the people in my world. I'm not just a little kid anymore. I understand how heartbreaking losing a person can be. It sucks. I've been there done that. I'm not sure how hard graduation will hit me. Will it hit me that day or will it wait until I finally start school next year and realize I have no one? I've been thinking about this subject way too hard. They know I love them. They know I tend to over analyze things that are important to me. It's hard to learn to let go of something so important to you. I'm just now getting used to this idea. :/
XOXO
CMillaaa
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