Life throws you curves, but you learn to swerve

Update on my life:

Today was better than yesterday. I'm still not in the mood to talk unless you are : Brooke Hess, Haley Ginther, Taylor Bundy, Taylor Carpenter or Mel. They've helped me through everything over the past 2 weeks. They are my very best friends. There's seriously nothing I could do without them. I know they'll be here when I am crying. They will hold me when I'm upset. They will have my back through the rest of highschool. Honestly, my life wouldn't be the same without them. I used to belong to a world where I didn't have too many friends. This week has shown me that I have more friends and people who care about me more than I could ever imagine. I pour my heart out to Taylor and Taylor on a daily basis. I'd be one of those girls who sits around and cuts herself up without them. Experiencing this roller coaster of emotions is crazy. I never, ever imagined myself having to deal with this kind of like emotional vomit and pain. Ward meant everything to me, but honestly, it's okay that it's over. I don't need a boy to be happy. He's probably better off without the distractions and I wish him the best of luck in the future. I hope he finds that girl that he loves more than life. He's a good guy and deserves someone wonderful. I'm just kind of a lot upset that I've lost my best friend out of this. I'm over emotional about a ton of things and he was always the person I'd rant to, and now my emotions are so haywire and I have no one to talk to. He always knew what to say and how to say it in a way for me to calm down.

This year I've decided to become a participant in the anti-valentines day theme. It's honestly not worth the pain. I don't see why people are always dying to be in relationships. Love doesn't last forever, no matter how much you want it to. High school is just full of drama. More than likely, you won't keep your friends an you'll go out in the world just as alone as you were when you came into it. I hope my group of girls sticks together and we're those parents that have get togethers atleast once a month, no matter if we like each others husbands or not. I'm not always the friendliest person and I apologize for all my negativeness. I get like this occasionally. Just don't stop being my friend because of it. I need all the distractions and girltime I can get. I cannot wait for my license. I have so many things to do. I'll be chilling with Meredith and Maddie whenever I want to. I can go to my mamaw's whenever I feel like it. I can go running and swimming and swinging whenever can. I've been listening to a ton of Christian music lately. Chris Tomlin makes me smile and I love Casting Crowns and Francesca Battistelli. I keep singing GP4U songs from Blaise. I miss my kids and the craziness of summer. I miss my life. I want to go back and change things, but what doesn't kill me, is making me a whole lot stronger.

"Be strong and courageous, do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9